i'm nothing without you boy.

TAEYANG!!!!! YES, I WANNA MARRY YOU <3

why must you be so effing hot and awesome? i wonder why.

currently listening to taeyang's make love song. I LOVE HIM, his songs, his chest, his abs, his voice, HIS EVERYTHING.

my week have been fun, for now. slept at mamit's on thursday and friday. went to eat outside for sungkai, though you wouldn't called it sungkai for me since im not fasting. ehem, pms. hope it'll end soon so i have less days to pay it back. have fun at mamit's. though there's not much stuff i can do there. but yeah, it's still fun. left some clothes there. hopefully can sleep there again next week or not. since its mizan's birthday. woohoo! he's turning old 12. haha!

i think i have to be a NERD soon. seriously. i failed my MIB & physics. i cant let this happen again. or it'll be dead. thank god teacher wants to give us a test again. hopefully i'll pass with FLYING COLOURS this time.

taeyang kissed a girl at his 'my girl' mv. it frustrates me. i'm not gonna sleep tonight. HAHA, rrrright!

i'm blank now. i've got stuffs to say but i'm blank cause sister's calling me to go watch a movie. so yeah. happy fasting!

"i don't wanna give up just yet, but i don't know what to do. i'll just let time decide what happens next. and hopefully it'll be good, though i doubt that. this year is totally so not my year. a lot happened lately and lots of it were not as i thought it'd turned out to be. i want to end this year. super duperly fast. now, can i?"

happy ramadhan

okay, i think i'm going to rub off the 'taeyang is not so handsome' from my previous post. taeyang is so effing hot and handsome. well, not THAT hot since he's short. not that short, but yeah short. i so love him. LOVE!

i'm feeling a bit down today. due to the DQ and kebab thingy. but i'm okay now, thanks to taeyang :D hohohoho.

dont have anything to say.

i was watching video all day. hahaha.

christian ronaldo being a model already? wooo. congrats dude. hahaha! you rock.

fyi, im not a fan of CR. he's hot but i love fabregas more <3

sorry for the short post. i was only going to update a bit.

happy ramadhan people & happy sahur.

'you, happy ramadhan. love you <3'

puasa!

sorry for the previous post's pictures. it was suppose to show hot guy's picture and not the allkpop stuff. anyways..

my week's been as usual though a bit different from other week. i've tried not to stayback and i did. hahaha, but i ended up doing nothing at the hostel. nothing much happened, except the fact that we had our finals of the netball league and we lost to the jokers. they were good though. the previous match with them, honestly i didn't expect that we'll win but we did. we came in second and the jokers won. a good game though. sorry to chongnam, cause i've push him like more than twice. he didn't even moved when i pushed him. i know im small. overall, it's a good game though. i like the part where i became the umpire. i like being the umpire, though i didn't really know the rules and all. i just like to blow the whistle. hahaha, sounds wrong to me.

dont know why after the final, i was down. really really down. i even maximize the ipod's volume and sang as loud as i can in the hostel. i just hope no one's bothered by my voice. for your information, i dont have pretty voice. kaka msg me telling that they're on the court playing netball. i joined them there, not for playing just to release my stress. then came a pre-u kaka asking us to play with them. we did. played with sir azlan, sir izam, sir picai and sir khai. had fun playing with them. cause they're being all playfull and all. they even acted like they didn't know how to play. they just simply kick the ball and slap the ball from our hand. i adore sir picai. he's tall and you get me right? he's the keeper fyi. our ball couldn't get in the 'D'. thanks to his long hand and body. i wish i was tall as him. i was better after that. later at night, mummy cooked lamb for me. thanks mummy. that cheered my day even more.

fyi, we had bbq at the hostel the day before yesterday. that is wednesday. i was the one who bbq-ed the chicken after sage when upstairs. and i like it. i wanna do it more often. haha! we played games until 11. thank god i didn't have many homework then. showered late at night. maybe that's why my back feels sore now. cause the night before, i think, i showered late too. i think. cant really remember.




though i know taeyang's not that handsome (cause i like artist/actor based on their look and something body) but i become more and more addicted to him.



i dont hope DBSK to break up. please dont.

puasa is tomorrow. woohoo! have to sleep early to get up for sahur. didn't feel like it's fasting month. days really move on fast.

i think i have to go. haven't had my shower yet.

seductions.

i was as usual checking out allkpop and find these..

The Super sexy, handsome, and downright difficult to work with..

Top 3 Super Sexy

1. Park Jaebeom - 2PM

[i agree. he's super hot.]

2. Jaejoong - DBSK

[oh yeah.]

3. Choi Siwon - Super Junior

[i'm not a fan of him, but he is hot]

Top 3 Super Handsome

1. Jang Geun Suk

[i dont know him and he's not handsome, for me. as the saying says, beauty is in the eye of the beholder]

2. Yunho/U-Know - DBSK

[yes, he's super handsome and hot and cool and perfect. everything! <3]

3. Han Geng - Super Junior

[he's cute, in a way.]

Top 4 Super Selective (ranking based on magazine staff's experiences working with various celebrities)

1. DBSK/TVXQ/Tohoshinki

2. Bae Yong Joon

3. Kim Ki Bum - Super Junior

4. Jeon Ji Hyun

i just noticed that i like seeing guys wearing calvin klein and not levis. hahaha!

watched koizora last night. we started watching last friday night though but only one episode. watched again last night and the episode 3 was a troublesome. watched episode 3 through youtube and will continue watching episode 4 maybe at the hostel. i'm feeling lazy to watch koizora now. haha, i haven't even finished watching episode 3. wanna watch the movie, cause sanaa said the movie is siuk-er.

where can i find an info about masjid kampung junjungan? i did find it through 'google brunei' hahaha, sounds funny. NOT! but the info is not complete. maybe i have to go to the mosque myself :S to get the info.

will have a whatever-tahlil-function tomorrow at the hostel with all the teacher, i assume.

wanna watch videos and stuffs. bye.

'i'm facing something now. facing something that may get me away from you. but i'm trying to avoid it. life with it's obstacles and seduction, is where i love to spend my life in. i wish i can say those words.'

the heart speaks.

you.
i wanna say i will love you forever but i dont want to cause i am afraid that i would not do that. i want to try to love you till forever but i dont promise that. i really want to try. can i?
i dont want to make stupid promises which i can't keep. it's just stupidly stupid.
i will just try my best to love you till forever.
it's just weird. i never ever thought of this stuff before.
i mean the forever thingy.
i just hope i can.
really.
cause a forever relationship just doesn't sound familiar to me, except for the married ones.
you may just ignore me.
i dont care.
crazy?
yeah, crazy about you.
i will wait till whenever i can.
as i've said, i'm aiming for forever but i didn't promised it.

you've made my day.

your text brightens up my night boy. thanks.

just a daily update here.

haven't ate anything today. i'm hungry. going to eat after this.

i have malay homework to do. i haven't gone through it though. hopefully it's easy. i can't afford to force my brain to work nowadays. i'm becoming lazier people. how can i be not lazy? tips. study twentyfour hour? haha! i ever thought of being a nerd. can't imagine how will i look like if i did.

watched new moon trailer again yday, and i think i wanna read twilight again. for the third time? haha. i've still got many books pending. da vinci code, angels and demons, darren shan trilogy 2, 3, 4, new host, kimah's book, adik's book. and i even have dramas pending. BOF, sad love story, koizora, the orange case dont remember what's the name and marrying a millionaire. mummy. when can i have time to read/watch all this stuff?!

fasting month is coming. it's new week. i can't wait. for a second, i dont want the fasting month to come soon, cause i've been thinking of running around the track and play netball. i can still run and play if im fasting though, like the other week. i have lots of protein and vitamin within me. wait, i dont think i have lots of protein, if i did i think i'll be taller. did i mention that my height now is 149? yeay me. i just hope i dont shrink. haha.

will have tahlil at babu eta's house later at night. will he be there? hopefully not. i dont wish to see him. it'll be like super duperly awkward mahn. he = young uncle. hahaha! i'm just excited to go there because there's dina and mirah and my family <3

my tummy's growling for food. later.

"i dreamt of you again sha. last night. but i dont remember what it's about. i'm just happy that i can dream of you. hahahaha. good luck in your poem. keep writing and be good at it."

FT island, will soon be my addiction. they're cute, handsome and probably hot.

hyun joong

hospital's ambulance.

They y'all.

might not do a proper blog tonight.

guess where am i now? hospital. yeay, NOT! and no, i'm not sick. i'm just accompanying my friend, whose sick. my first experience, being in the ambulance. it's awkward cold in there.

i'm blogging cause i have nothing to do here. might just say some lame stuff here.

updates;
-didnt went back to the hostel last sunday night. was on my way to bandar, and bum called me and asked if i can be a 'jelitawan' at an under 14 football tournament between ikan pusu and muara villa at the stadium. saw handsome dude, but he's small. haha. went to sent ka zimah and ka adi off their houses and went to sleep at bum teacher's house at sengkurong. she sent us back hostel in the next worning.
-there's this an un-normal people, who might be interesting in me. hahaha, sounds funny right? noh, im not joking. its freaking me out. the symptoms are all clear. just need the people itself to confirm it. which i think is not necessary since i have no feeling for this people and i dont want to be all awkward with this person. well, im kind of friends with her now. just friend, not close and totally not bffs. haha!
-played netball against effie's team today and we won. 5-0. sir said that the top 4 will compete in the semis. im scared. hopefully we'll win this thing.

did i mention that i have not taken my shower yet? i know, ew. it's nearly 11 now, and i dont for god sake how long will we have to wait till the blood result. they said in 2 to 3 hours. like wth?! grr.

i would be watching eyeshield now if im not here, with my dearest bum, pumpkinhead and her. haha!

thankgod i have no homework for today. if i did, im so dead.

im learning to become a girl lately. hahaha. just kidding. i successfully kept my nail long. woohoo. with the help of my beautiful cutex. haha! without your help, i will never succeed in keeping my nail long and i will be biting my nail off. i know, ew, but i cant help it. haha! a bad habit of mine.

just stop reading if you think it's getting boring. cause i'll just keep typing till my head gets empty.

anyways, i saw you just now. i was having my biology extra class from 1-1.30 then i went to the cafe while sanaa's waiting for her father's car. found wati and ka nisah at cafe and chatted with them. i was going to go back hostel when wati said his name. and i said, where. she replied, there. and i saw you walking down the stairs and towards the table. i just cant stop looking. you're just so dashingly hot. hahaha. hope you're not reading this or i'll be super duperly embarassed.

iu's acoustic version of gee is twothumbsup.

we'll have tahlil at babu eta's tomorrow night. im so looking forward to go there tomorrow. will see dina and mirah. they're so adorably cute that i cant hardly resist them. grr. just the same case as you boy.

im hoping that bum and mia are not sleeping already.

i think i've talked too much. wanna sing some song and go to sleep. HAHA, i wish. ciao.

crumpled paper.

currently at babu eta's house, again. HAHA!

i'm waiting for mamit to pick me up. i'll be following mamit to bandar cause babah went to miri cause he have the golf tournament.

i think i'm gonna be a korean addict soon. OMG! hahaha, never thought this day would ever come.

im just updating cause im bored. hahaha, sorry.

will do a proper update soon. sometime in next week.

wish me a good week next week.

"i dreamed of you dude. this never happens to me. i mean the part where you appear in my sleep. you gave me a crumpled letter. there's writing on both sides of the crumpled paper. i did read one side of the letter but i cant remember anything. i wish i did read the letter and remembered it "

taeyang.

i'm currently at babu eta's house. her anniversary. happy anniversary babu eta.

i dont really have any specific stuff to update about. im just updating cause someone will ask me to if i dont. right? haha.

i think i screw every three of my test paper today. im so dead :| i just hope i passed.

i'm getting more and more addicted to taeyang's song, look only at me. i smiled every time i hear this song. i just cant stop smiling, dont know why. yes, im crazy about this song.

i've been watching news. korean celebrities news.

im just blank with people passing by. hahaha.

i think i got to go. will blog again later if i sleep late tonight or maybe i wanna share something.

gee gee gee

my current addiction:

hockey dude.
bigbang.
shinee, jong hyun.
gee by suju & boy's generation.
nichkhun.
taeyang's song, look only at me.
it's you by super junior.
netball.

i've been watching nichkhun's video all night and ended up sleeping at 5am. it's a show or whatever you called it, nichkhun having a girlfriend and he's really sweet and cute too. i love NK.

i haven't had my shower yet, will do after blogging. i hope so.

my week's been okay so far. had the netball tournament, and someone accidentally make me fall and bruised my leg. thank you friend, haha! went to sanaa's house last wednesday doing the physic project. huda & sanaa didnt let me do the work and i slept. not the whole time. i was actually looking around at her stuff and felt boring and slept. hahaha! been fasting the whole week, except wednesday cause i have netball and today. one day left, i dont feel like fasting anymore. will see if tomorrow i should or not.

received the first and second assessment's result and i did very bad. i hope i'll study harder for the next test. help me god!

you're irresistable.


why must you be so cute and adorable khunnie?


and you, yes my new addiction (Y)



i miss my long curly hair. haha, if you noticed i never posted a picture of me short-haired right? hahaha, will do if i do wanna take pictures. im not in the vaining mood recently, due to my short hair problem.

i am hungry and i feel like i am fasting. haha. wanna eat after i take the shower.

my life's is dull, like this. nothing interesting to talk about.

ps; i dont know what came up to me yesterday. i was totally out of my mind. i almost wanna do something crazy. i was searching for a cutter yesterday. I WANNA CUT MYSELF. i know im crazy, i think i might do it yesterday cause i've done it before BUT there was no cutter to be found in my room. i think god's still love me. dont you? and i wanna go shop later and decide to buy a cutter for myself. i' conscious now, and i need it for school and hopefully never thought of doing the stupid stuff EVER again.


i dont wanna say forever but i am aiming for it.