confession.

I'm feeling a bit mental, mad at this time. and i know I've blogged more than once today, but i just felt like blogging. yeah, it's about HER. i don't want to mention her name though. i just want her to read this blog and realized it was about her. she is damn rude. i don't want to say this words because i know if i did people who knew and her will know it right away and i don't really want to do that. why can't i be bigger and fierce-er than her? why must i be the small one and not that fierce type? if i am, i will scold her, like hell. i just can't scold her with the way i am now, because if i did she'll just shout back at me and yeah that makes me hate her and i will just curse her and i will go crying. it's useless. how can i teach that person? it's useless to be the elder when you have no rights to say anything. i hate myself for caring what others think about me if i say something. why do i have to care for people's feeling? do they ever do the same with me? no, i dont think so. some people will just say what they think its on their mind.

sorry M, for telling you to come over here. i just think maybe you will be happier here. i somehow knew you regret coming here, am i right? all you get here is being scolded by the damn ass human.

can i change being rude and heartless? if i can i will. sorry people if one day you will see the heartless and selfish me. maybe it'll be better if i'm that type. heartless? good choice (: